Mumblings of a Muddled Mind

I like to write about what matters to me and to raise awareness for mental health. I suffer from mental illness but that does not define who I am.

Friday, March 5, 2010

Do You Compute?

I think at some point this weekend I might hole myself up in a room and write. There is something about the pen and paper that inspires me more so than typing on a computer. It feels more real to me I suppose.

I used to do this a lot when I lived on my own by myself or when I had my own room at the g'rent's place. I'd hang out by myself for hours,listening to music, burning incense and candles and just writing whatever popped into my head at the time. I found it very cathartic.

I think it may also be due to my slight aversion to computers. Yeah I know that sounds ridiculous coming from me, right? Maybe not so much. I like the knowledge aspect and the sociability the Internet gives but other than that, I don't much care for them.
I can install new hardware and software and set up a network. I just really dislike doing so.

When I was a child I was a bit of a whiz with computers. My mother bought us a Commodore 64 when I was young and I played on it quite a lot. I used them happily until my mother died.
She spent so much time trying to "upgrade her skills" (and by that I mean locking herself in her bedroom and drinking a lot of beer in front of the computer) in the end that I grew to loathe them and I have just never really became super excited by them ever since.

I just might be the only one on my Mother's side of the family who is not using computers as a career or for their career. I prefer to make art. With my hands. I think that's why I love making stained glass so much. My workbench is a disaster right now. I need to organise it once again so it's easier to work on.

I am sure there are some fun video games on the PC but I don't really care. I play console. I really love the idea of Photoshop as I love photography but I still haven't been bothered enough to care to look at it. There is a copy here if I wish to, however.

I suppose they just strike me as cold and impersonal and when I write creatively, I want to feel close to my work. I'm pretty sure this will not make sense to some people. *laugh*

I also like to doodle on the paper! :D

So, hopefully I will have something new after this weekend.


  1. I think you should write some songs that I can produce the background tracks for :D

  2. Have a good weekend. Wish I could make stained glass. Don't know why. I just always wished that was a talent I had.

    Alas, I am talentless.

  3. Love stained glass. I haven't an ounce of artistic ability like this. But I, too, love to just hole up and give free rein to my creativity. It's a beaatiful thing.

  4. I am not a PC gamer either. I am totally a console chick and I always will be.

    I used to be totally intrigued by computers. Until I started working w-computers for a living.

  5. Well, the plan didn't work this weekend because it was too nice out! lol

    Consoles rule. :P

    SB you are not talentless!! I wouldn't be following your blog if you were.. ;)
    You know, it's not all that hard to create the glass pieces if you use an already made pattern. It is relaly about cutting technique and practice, practice, practice!
    And soldering. :D

    I will write songs, will you write ME a song already?? :P