Mumblings of a Muddled Mind

I like to write about what matters to me and to raise awareness for mental health. I suffer from mental illness but that does not define who I am.

Friday, March 26, 2010


That makes me sound old, doesn't it?

I seem to have fucked up my sciatic nerve on the left side of my hip. It hurts really badly if I'm standing for a long time or sitting in a seat with raised edges. I am currently taking Percocet for it and boy oh boy do they make me loopy! I have to be really careful with these though, as I don't want to become addicted to them. I just love having an addictive personality. It makes everything I do that much harder. I have to think about things like how much is too much? Is my tolerance high already because I have done so many drugs in the past? Will this amount harm me more in the long-run, or is it worth not having to suffer from pain?

The best part of this whole situation is that it happened to me while I was shovelling the damn heavy, wet snow we had last and I was out there doing so because my hubby had a job interview and I didn't want him to mess up HIS back before he left!

It didn't start in the hip, however. I started to feel bad back pain as if I had pulled the muscles in my lower back and then went bowling the night after. My back was sore but not my hip while I was bowling. It took about a week for the hip pain to show up. Now my back feels peachy keen but I can't shake this hip problem.

I saw a nurse practitioner at my Doc's office about it and she ordered x-rays and an MRI. The x-rays were negative and I was told that it may take quite a while for this to heal and that I should be going to physiotherapy.

So far I have called about six places and none of them are covered by our public healthcare (OHIP) and I am piss-poor broke. I guess it's not in the cards for me to get the help I need right away. Or at all for that matter; it's not like money is going to magically appear on that stupid money tree we have in the living room. What a misleading name for a plant, I tell ya!

So for now, I get to be loopy.

Needless to say, this is putting a cramp in my bowling style, man. I was just starting to get back into bowling and this damn hip thing has to go and fuck with it. How am I ever going to make bowling cool again if I can't even go out and play it?!

Ahhh back to Wii bowling for me I suppose! I have mastered the "too lazy to even get off the couch" bowling moves. That's right, I am a couch potato bowler now. I am badass.


  1. Well The Reiki is always available to you if you are interested. I'm not going to say it will alleviate all of the pain but it may help. I also know how shity it is that Physio is not covered. I need it for my jaw and I cannot afford 50 dollars per week. I can't also afford the 7 thousand dollar bill to get my teeth fixed

  2. Just goes to show you the severe limitations to the coverage provided by our so-called public health care system.

    Thanks for taking care of the snow for me though love.. although next time, I'll bank on the snow tires to get me out, and save you some trouble ;)

  3. Sciatic pain is a bitch. Man, I love to bowl, even though I totally suck at it. I like any activity where you can drink and throw a heavy ball around.